To do or not to do

I was wondering if I should enter a photo contest. In over 8 years of doing art, i have never entered a contest. I guess in school, at the end of the year "spring show" when i only got one piece in, i got discouraged. It seemed they were looking for a specific kind and mine wasn't it. The only worthy piece I have happens to be the first one i ever did.


I also starting to lose some hope as to whether the reenatype will ever be a recognized photographic process and if i should even continue to do it. It's a lost art, coming from a Polaroid, to a color C-Print, all using chemistry, which makes me wonder about the environment. Not very green of me. That's why it's a guilty pleasure creating this process. I take something, a moment, freeze it, then stretch it as far as the imagination can go with the process. I can't imagine not having a hands on experience making art. Sometimes I used recycled things, sometimes i use new things, but it always produces something unique. The natural give and take, the yin and yang.

Living in an apartment in NYC is not the easiest of art situations either.
1. NO SPACE...to create or store anything. You also have to think twice about using recyclables from around here.
2. NO MOOLA...i know everyone in the world has this problem, but since the invention of digital, which magically happened as I was cast into the film oblivion, is far cheaper and now just as good as film. Imagine, all the cost of film, developing, printing, framing, storing all now held in a tiny little electronic stick.
3. NO MOTIVATION...this is the most important. After years of showing this process and my work, it has still gone unnoticed. The kaleidoscope of prints pile up and i just feel like throwing them away. All unique and special to me, they stay locked up in a box. I don't even know where to put the box.

Review, revise, restore. everything now becoming digital, electronic, recorded...until everything just gets DELETED.